Life is Strange

Last night my friend Andy called and we talked until almost midnight.  He's a real nice guy.  I've known him online for at least 15 years.  He lives on the East Coast, in Jersey.  When he calls me, we usually talk about God and pray for each other.  He's got a girl that he's interested in.  I hope it really works out for him.  He deserves something good.

Just been entering contests here on dA and doing manips.  It's keeping me occupied and busy.  I just have to remember to not play sad songs while I'm working on a piece.  My emotions are very fragile right now.  I don't need to cock-block myself by playing music that makes me cry. 

Speaking of crying.......I only cried 3 times today.  What an improvement.  Perhaps my eyes will go back to normal green soon, instead of bloodshot from tears.  That would be lovely. 

Mandy and I made dinner together.  It was fun.  We made grilled cheese sandwiches and home-made french fries.  It was pretty good. 

A man from a different site that I just joined hunted me down on Facebook so he could talk to me.  He seems like a nice fella, but I don't know whether to be flattered or worried.   It's a little bit creepy to me.  He lives about a 100 miles from me.  He said he got my real name from a piece of art that I have posted, where my photo ID picture is posted as well.  So he hunted me down on Facebook.  Tonight on Facebook, he was trying to give me a puppy.  I don't know if that's a rouse to meet me or what.  At any rate, I told him no thanks on the puppy. 

Even though I have kept myself very busy,  I haven't been able to erase John, Emily and Brian out of my mind and heart.  I wonder how long it's going to take to not miss them all the way that I do.  I love those little kids.  I've helped take care of them for the past 9 months.  They became a huge part of my life.  As did John. 

I guess it's good that I found out before I married him that his feelings can be turned on and off like flipping a light switch.  People like that are very scary.  My illusion of who he was does not mesh with who he really is.  Love is blind.  However, I am getting my sight back.  So that is progress as well.